My Sweet Bailey...

“It's a little girl, with scrunched-up petal lips and a tuft of dark hair and hands in tiny fits, up by her ears... All that time, that's who was in there.... And it's weird, but the minute I saw her I just thought...I already know you.."

My Sweet Bailey...

Here I am looking at your beautiful face – My beautiful girl.... It is a face so unique, yet so familiar... I knew this face instantly when I first looked at you... as if I have always known you....I have always wondered what love at first sight felt like...and now I know...

I can spend endless amounts of time just looking at you... I hold you in my arms and stare at your perfect little features. I can do this all day long if time permitted.... It gives me a thrill to see you open your eyes (which are now a beautiful crystal blue) and look at me... You study my face as if you are trying to get to know me...We sit and stare into each others eyes often and I feel like we are having our very own conversation without the words...I can see so clearly the words in your eyes...I can see the love...you are only 4 months old but I think we as human beings are born with a natural instinct to love what nurtures us....

I watch you as you make an assortment of facial expressions...you pout your lips, you smile (Alot), when you are concentrating you crease your brow, there are times when you look exactly like your daddy...the older you get I can see more and more of me in you....and your laugh....your laugh can make my worst day my best...you get so excited over the slightest little thing...you ball your little fists up and you bring them close to your face and let out the most vibrant giggle...I can not even begin to explain the feeling I get when I hear that sound...you are starting to understand what your hands are for and you are learning to grab stuff...and you give the best slobbery kisses... I often wondered how I could have enough room in my heart to love anyone like I love your brother...but now I understand...I have a love for you that is all your own...I love you both equally but it is very different in many ways...

You enjoy your swing, in which you rock back and forth as sounds of music entertain and/or lull you to sleep... I love to watch you in your daddy’s arms as you watch football with him (this makes him over the moon)...or when he gets his guitar out and sings to you...you seem to study him as if you know he is singing solely to you...If we want to get a instant smile out of you all we have to do is sing "The itsy bitsy spider" or "You are my Sunshine"...I personally think you are going to be our little songbird...I have always loved music but lacked the talent to make it...I am hoping you got my love of music and your daddys talent. You have a host of family that adore your every move...Your Pawpaw and mawmaw count down the minutes until I bring you in the mornings...and your tadmaw and tadpaw look forward to Sunday mornings at church and lunch so they can kiss your sweet face...and I promise you that you won't find another little boy that loves you like your older brother....since the day you were born he has been by your side....waited up all night waiting on your arrival...I will never forget his face the first time he held you...he loves to make you laugh and smile...he cant wait to wake you up in the mornings (Althoug,h he hates to take out your dirty diapers)..he has a fierce protectiveness of you already...I know there is a huge age gap between the two of you...there will be times when you will get on his nerves and vice versa...but I pray that you two always have a relationship...and make a point to be involved in one anothers life...As a mom, it is my responsibility to make sure this happens as often as possible...but I hope that one day it becomes like a second nature for you and him to be involved...to be close with one another...Everyone should have a sibling as a best friend...

For  8  months, I  prepared for your arrival. It was a time of excitement and a few challenges.... Early on in the pregnancy, I had many complications...and at one point we did not think we would ever get to see your beautiful face....but we overcome every obstacle that was placed in our way by God's grace...From then on, I considered you strong...it is because of this that I know God has big plans for you my sweet girl...there is a big world out there that you are going to take by storm one day...There is so much I want to tell you...to teach you...but in the same breath I am ready to learn from you...

I am so thankful for you. I look forward to the journey that you, your daddy, Khristian and I  will travel together.... We have so much to look forward to, so many milestones to accomplish, and memories to make.... Along the way, I will cherish each moment as I know time will pass much too quickly....

Unitl your next letter my sweet girl...Mommy loves you to the moon and back... =)

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